“I’ll tell you what I want, what I really really want….” ~ The Spice Girls
It’s simple…I want to be happy again, for more than a few minutes every few days. I want to find someone else like me to help me understand and make it through this transition to a different preference. I want to be off this lonely, God forsaken, emotional rollercoaster. I want Heaven to have visiting hours.
Except for the last thing, these things aren’t too much to ask are they?
The pity party brought to you by four days of bickering and hateful behavior from my children, mostly sibling stuff but some directed at me. Being overwhelmed and feeling inadequate at work. Being emotionally and physically exhausted. Being in a long distance relationship, and it isn’t for the faint of heart! Having no family. Having few friends so little support, encouragement, laughter. Not feeling good enough to make anyone happy. Loneliness. Grief. Everything.